4.28.2014

Seven


Mom.  Mom!

Mom, are you going to cry?

We gathered with him and eleven of his class pals to celebrate his seventh birthday.  There was pizza and a requested cookie cake that said Happy Birthday Theo in blue buttercream.  There was bowling and a game of laser tag and arcade games with tickets pouring out of machines.  There were ticket counter prizes.  There was me after the party was all said and done and all of the children were back in the hands of their parents, and I said absolutely never again.  It was wonderful and Theo loved it.  But I knew before this party even started that birthdays, even though my most favorite celebrations, will be done differently from now on.

You know, for Theo it was all about the party and friends and Legos.  But for the last three days I have worn my heart on my sleeve.  It started this past Friday morning while he was chewing his breakfast and then started making funny sounds to get my attention.  I instantly knew that his tooth, hanging by a root for days, had finally come out.  I walked over to him and had him spit his food onto a little plate.  My motherhood flare in full force as I combed through the warm, gooey mass of blueberry waffle to find the pearly little tooth, no more root.  And while I was searching for the tooth, I looked up at him and there it was - my first born whose once toothless, gummy smile I never in my loveliest dreams could've imagined then on the cusp of seven years old and missing his top front teeth.  I must've froze because for a moment, I cannot remember.  And then I heard him saying, Mom.  Mom!  Mom, are you going to cry?

I did. 

Someone can punch me for saying this, but time really does go by so fast.  I am trying this morning to eat leftover birthday cake that I made for Theo and drink my latte while listening to Alabama Shakes, but my heart is indeed on my sleeve and all of my love is lodged right in the center of my throat.  Sometimes I just wish I could hit pause because these ages right now - 4 1/2 and 7 are about the most awesome, magical time ever.  I feel like I did when my boys were born.  Nothing in the world felt better to me than holding them, nursing them, resting my nose in their soft hair.  Even rocking in the night, five hundred million years tired.  I never wanted it to end.  And I guess that's what it is right now.  I just want to be here, right here, for a good long while.

4 comments :

  1. To me, and I know this is completely arbitary, seven is so big. HUGE. I agree. I can't believe these babies of ours are turning (or have turned) seven this year. I look at him sometimes...all big kid teeth and long gangly legs and how in a few short years (probably while he is still in elementary school) he will be taller than me. I don't care if people roll their eyes when we say it...time is a wily little beast...slipping by us oh so quickly.

    Hope Theo had the best birthday ever!

    ~Angelika

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  2. I think time slows down QUITE a bit if you add some more... ;-)
    Happy Birthday to Theo!

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  3. Wow, just wow. Thank you Katie for sharing your beautiful photos and words. Time definitely does fly! I really miss seeing Theo and Sully on a regular basis. I cherish your shared pics so that I can watch them grow! I'm thinking about you all!

    Much love,
    Jane

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